Tuesday, 19 November 2013
Monday, 23 September 2013
Extraordinary
What defines it?
My formula: unconditional, life-changing, mind-altering, truly, madly, deeply, passionate-sometimes-extraordinarily-difficult. Mind-blowing, breath-taking, mind-stopping, life-changing, heart-stopping, blood-rushing.
Sounds like one in a million and contradictory.
How does blood rushes when your heart stops?
Lol, whatever.
Chill out. ;)
My formula: unconditional, life-changing, mind-altering, truly, madly, deeply, passionate-sometimes-extraordinarily-difficult. Mind-blowing, breath-taking, mind-stopping, life-changing, heart-stopping, blood-rushing.
Sounds like one in a million and contradictory.
How does blood rushes when your heart stops?
Lol, whatever.
Chill out. ;)
Saturday, 14 September 2013
Somewhat back to my own mind
Taking time to think it through;
I'm not the one that broke you, I'm not the one you should fear.
I would suppose I've fallen ill for a period of time.
Sure does feel like it.
Why does it always feel like I am no longer as strong as I used to be.
I mean physically.
Like I could carry 10-12 chairs one go, back then and now, 8's would have killed my back.
I could run till I leave everything behind.
Hold back your fears.
I'm one more step ahead of that.
I don't want to run anymore. I'm facing it. And I'm going to overcome this.
And I won't hold back my fears anymore, I'm just gonna lose it.
I won't hold to it no more. I no longer fear it.
Temporary setbacks are nothing to me.
And my buddies just reminded me of myself.
Of who and what I would really do. How can I contradict that right.
This is where nothing holds me back.
And that's $h@rK.
Put a wall in front of me and I'll walk right through it.
I don't pick the simple fights cause I know I get to get through the hard ones with the team that I have because I know, that we're worthy enough to get through it.
So go ahead and pick the easy battles. What pride is there in that?
I'm not the one that broke you, I'm not the one you should fear.
I would suppose I've fallen ill for a period of time.
Sure does feel like it.
Why does it always feel like I am no longer as strong as I used to be.
I mean physically.
Like I could carry 10-12 chairs one go, back then and now, 8's would have killed my back.
I could run till I leave everything behind.
Hold back your fears.
I'm one more step ahead of that.
I don't want to run anymore. I'm facing it. And I'm going to overcome this.
And I won't hold back my fears anymore, I'm just gonna lose it.
I won't hold to it no more. I no longer fear it.
Temporary setbacks are nothing to me.
And my buddies just reminded me of myself.
Of who and what I would really do. How can I contradict that right.
This is where nothing holds me back.
And that's $h@rK.
Put a wall in front of me and I'll walk right through it.
I don't pick the simple fights cause I know I get to get through the hard ones with the team that I have because I know, that we're worthy enough to get through it.
So go ahead and pick the easy battles. What pride is there in that?
What now.......
Okay.........
Lost my voice.
Darn frustrated.
Good time to express feelings through the guitar (they say if you don't have a voice, you'd do anything to get your message across).
Goo Goo Dolls is great. And my friend told me, " wow you're finally near the 90s and the millennium. No problem though, you're still 13 years away from 2013 even if you're in 2000 xD "
And there's something more I can't describe.
This time. Its speechless in a different way. ?? ? ? ?? ?? ?? ???
Sh@t. Some age-old mind-f@ck goin on here.
What............now..............geez..........
That's..........sad.. Or wrong. Or...........right? Or.......true or .......false.........or........
Hmm......
Mayb just the thought process.
Lost my voice.
Darn frustrated.
Good time to express feelings through the guitar (they say if you don't have a voice, you'd do anything to get your message across).
Goo Goo Dolls is great. And my friend told me, " wow you're finally near the 90s and the millennium. No problem though, you're still 13 years away from 2013 even if you're in 2000 xD "
And there's something more I can't describe.
This time. Its speechless in a different way. ?? ? ? ?? ?? ?? ???
Sh@t. Some age-old mind-f@ck goin on here.
What............now..............geez..........
That's..........sad.. Or wrong. Or...........right? Or.......true or .......false.........or........
Hmm......
Mayb just the thought process.
Thursday, 12 September 2013
Cheers
I'm still believin.
You born and you die and its gone in a minute.
I ain't lookin back cause I don't wanna miss it.
You born and you die and its gone in a minute.
I ain't lookin back cause I don't wanna miss it.
Monday, 9 September 2013
Hilariously contradictory interesting annoying as hell
I want you to stand on the edge with me.
Hold nothing back.
Just run till we leave everything behind.
You'll see how much you can breathe, smile and laugh before you can catch your breath back.
I wanna fly with you in the clouds.
I wanna drop down from the sky with you and give no damn about all the birds that are flying by watching.
I wanna be free. But I want you to feel this "free".
I want to show you that you can stay here being free and yet be having so much fun at the same time.
And that's where you'll see that the answer to all that you are thinking, feeling and worrying about is given when you stop thinking about it.
The answer that you could always never be find will be right in front of your eyes the moment you let love in.
You're hilariously interesting.
You're nothing like what you try to be.
You're nothing like what it seems.
And its cool how I can see how you fool every1.
You drown everyone with your vanity and your self-love.
What you feel is what you are, and what you are is beautiful.
For that you are never what you are at the moment and how it never stays the same is beautiful.
I'll never be what some1 wants me to be.
But I can be whatever some1 wanted.
And no1 can break me as long as I know who I am.
They can't tell me who to be, cause I'm not what they see.
I wanna touch things I don't feel.
I wanna hold on and I wanna feel I belong. I want to stay "changing".
And I'll burn everything, if you would run with me.
Just being who you are.
I like that ever-changing storm in you. Don't change a thing.
But keep changing cause that's the way you are.
Enough talking, lets just start living like we mean it and love till we feel it.
I'd love to talk and I could forever.
But lets just run before its too late.
The only rule is, there are no rules cause love's the only rule.
Hold nothing back.
Just run till we leave everything behind.
You'll see how much you can breathe, smile and laugh before you can catch your breath back.
I wanna fly with you in the clouds.
I wanna drop down from the sky with you and give no damn about all the birds that are flying by watching.
I wanna be free. But I want you to feel this "free".
I want to show you that you can stay here being free and yet be having so much fun at the same time.
And that's where you'll see that the answer to all that you are thinking, feeling and worrying about is given when you stop thinking about it.
The answer that you could always never be find will be right in front of your eyes the moment you let love in.
You're hilariously interesting.
You're nothing like what you try to be.
You're nothing like what it seems.
And its cool how I can see how you fool every1.
You drown everyone with your vanity and your self-love.
What you feel is what you are, and what you are is beautiful.
For that you are never what you are at the moment and how it never stays the same is beautiful.
I'll never be what some1 wants me to be.
But I can be whatever some1 wanted.
And no1 can break me as long as I know who I am.
They can't tell me who to be, cause I'm not what they see.
I wanna touch things I don't feel.
I wanna hold on and I wanna feel I belong. I want to stay "changing".
And I'll burn everything, if you would run with me.
Just being who you are.
I like that ever-changing storm in you. Don't change a thing.
But keep changing cause that's the way you are.
Enough talking, lets just start living like we mean it and love till we feel it.
I'd love to talk and I could forever.
But lets just run before its too late.
The only rule is, there are no rules cause love's the only rule.
Wednesday, 4 September 2013
Clearly, truely and undoubtedly.
How long has it been since I see.
I can't say I have seen any clearer than this since I dunno when.
I have gone more speechless than I could literally imagine.
I have a lil of a sorethroat or whatever you call it. It doesn't bother me much other than that of my speech.
I do get a lil bit more snappy with this generally tight feeling around my neck. Feels like being choked all the time.
It now sounds like I have a slang and I can only speak at a low register.
Music's been getting to me (jamming too much maybe?)
Other than that, my best buddy just had a breakup. Not like its a big thing. Really.
Nowadays, things come and go.
Not that it matters anymore.
Hangin out as usual.
N he would talk about e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g. Like ol' times.
Feels a lil numb these days. Those extreme things.....we've......done those....
The jokes
There's something missing. What is it.
But I have to see. I have to run. I have to feel. The feeling of the air brushing through my ears and my face.
Is it this feeling that I need?
Something is missing inside me. No, I am not going to take an X-ray to figure out if I lost an organ inside me thanks.
I clearly know what to do.
I mean I always know what to.
Unless some1 bothers me 24 hours a day clearly from my thought process.
I can't say I have seen any clearer than this since I dunno when.
I have gone more speechless than I could literally imagine.
I have a lil of a sorethroat or whatever you call it. It doesn't bother me much other than that of my speech.
I do get a lil bit more snappy with this generally tight feeling around my neck. Feels like being choked all the time.
It now sounds like I have a slang and I can only speak at a low register.
Music's been getting to me (jamming too much maybe?)
Other than that, my best buddy just had a breakup. Not like its a big thing. Really.
Nowadays, things come and go.
Not that it matters anymore.
Hangin out as usual.
N he would talk about e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g. Like ol' times.
Feels a lil numb these days. Those extreme things.....we've......done those....
The jokes
There's something missing. What is it.
But I have to see. I have to run. I have to feel. The feeling of the air brushing through my ears and my face.
Is it this feeling that I need?
Something is missing inside me. No, I am not going to take an X-ray to figure out if I lost an organ inside me thanks.
I clearly know what to do.
I mean I always know what to.
Unless some1 bothers me 24 hours a day clearly from my thought process.
Saturday, 17 August 2013
The power of dreams is amazing.
Gotta thank you, my friend.
Although there was no direct contribution to it.
I gotta say I'm officially back on track.
Even if it might seem like its nothing at all.
Even if its like nothing much at all.
Perspectives and psychologies of the mind is hard to explain.
But you my friend, gave a little bit of meaning back into my views of seeing things.
Call it faith.
Call it a dream.
I haven't dreamt such dreams for such a long long time.
Cause you wouldn't know if they existed, so dreams fade away in due time.
But what if some1 around you existed. You never thought they existed, they do.
How's that? Living proof, in the flesh.
Feels great. It proves you wrong. And its great if such thoughts were proven wrong.
It now made so much sense. That you won't even need words to explain them.
Dreams are something you would call impractical. But know this: those who cannot even dream, cannot even start walking towards that direction. Because they do not have the direction. At least you have a dream, a vision, a mission, a purpose, a plan, a goal, an objective.
All of these translate into an achievement.
You cannot walk on the path to achievements, if you don't start dreaming or at least have ONE simple dream.
Therefore, thank you for giving me the dream and thank you, for it opened that last lock, wall and ceiling on my mind.
I'm finally free of that constraint that I thought would never fade or wane away.
This means so much to me. Its no longer limited.
Its odd how random people or how some friends saying or doing certain random things give you inspiration and motivation. Its odd. And its these moments we all have and need more in life. =)
These moments let you know that miracles can exist and you can make that miracle happen in some other people's lives too.
Gotta head out now, to see more inspiring friends. ;)
Although there was no direct contribution to it.
I gotta say I'm officially back on track.
Even if it might seem like its nothing at all.
Even if its like nothing much at all.
Perspectives and psychologies of the mind is hard to explain.
But you my friend, gave a little bit of meaning back into my views of seeing things.
Call it faith.
Call it a dream.
I haven't dreamt such dreams for such a long long time.
Cause you wouldn't know if they existed, so dreams fade away in due time.
But what if some1 around you existed. You never thought they existed, they do.
How's that? Living proof, in the flesh.
Feels great. It proves you wrong. And its great if such thoughts were proven wrong.
It now made so much sense. That you won't even need words to explain them.
Dreams are something you would call impractical. But know this: those who cannot even dream, cannot even start walking towards that direction. Because they do not have the direction. At least you have a dream, a vision, a mission, a purpose, a plan, a goal, an objective.
All of these translate into an achievement.
You cannot walk on the path to achievements, if you don't start dreaming or at least have ONE simple dream.
Therefore, thank you for giving me the dream and thank you, for it opened that last lock, wall and ceiling on my mind.
I'm finally free of that constraint that I thought would never fade or wane away.
This means so much to me. Its no longer limited.
Its odd how random people or how some friends saying or doing certain random things give you inspiration and motivation. Its odd. And its these moments we all have and need more in life. =)
These moments let you know that miracles can exist and you can make that miracle happen in some other people's lives too.
Gotta head out now, to see more inspiring friends. ;)
Fire house is back
I got lucky, I found heaven here on Earth.
I can see it in your eyes.
Cause loving you is paradise.
Never knew before I met ya, that angels do exist.
You are the one temptation baby that I can never resist.
I believe forever, we can stay together.
Cause loving you is paradise.
Never say goodbye, our love will never die.
I wasn't lookin for a miracle.
Then you came into my life.
You've opened my eyes, made me realise,
that loving you is paradise.
Now I know, angels do exist.
Cause your sweet lovin is what I can't resist.
Firehouse - Loving you is paradise. ;)
I can see it in your eyes.
Cause loving you is paradise.
Never knew before I met ya, that angels do exist.
You are the one temptation baby that I can never resist.
I believe forever, we can stay together.
Cause loving you is paradise.
Never say goodbye, our love will never die.
I wasn't lookin for a miracle.
Then you came into my life.
You've opened my eyes, made me realise,
that loving you is paradise.
Now I know, angels do exist.
Cause your sweet lovin is what I can't resist.
Firehouse - Loving you is paradise. ;)
Sunday, 28 July 2013
Just me and my buddy
So my buddy was off to UK soon.
And he's just planning to get his @$$ in the upright position.
Planning, packing, visa and stuffs.
And guess what his parents are just too busy doing stuff I'm filling in for temporary baby sitting haha.
Sort of.
So I went with my buddy downtown to get doctor checkups for him and stuff and we had some fun messing with people. Or more of people messin with us.
Little things like which girl looked at me or him first. Or if that girl talked to him or me 1st. It means something. YEA RIGHT> If a girl actually ties her laces up with her @$$ facin u, its supposed to mean that she wants you to bang her to right? Wtf man....lols BUT yea, it was fun messing round.
And if we'd dare our guts to go at the girl.
The usual thing. That we stopped doing to each other ages ago. That goes far back-since high school.
Punching bags for each other we'd always punch like hell just to see who's the man.
Its just funny how we're in 2 different universities now. And life will soon diverge so much from the path that we were originally on. Ahh......Nostalgic.
Back then its just, his gelled hair, my slick hair, our prefect duty or privilege (more off xD).
Challenging each other, Picking fights, fight with buddies (sometimes it happens. Dnt ask), covering others, ensure people are safe, no fighting, (but sometimes we get into it ourselves xD), living on every other day, looking out for some sucker who tried to hit on his sister (his sister is as well as mine), adhering to rules and making sure every1 was doing that.
Backing each other up when we got into sh@t. Also responsible for putting each other into sh@t sometimes xD Intentionally-speaking.
Ahhh......of course. The girls......WE'd get it everytime we send students off to class.
The best part about being the prefect back in junior high?? Lol, is that you get any CHICK, ANYWHERE, WHOEVER. You got that access man. (I think that's why I signed up despite I always claim about my righteous duty xD. Sh@T I JUST FIGURED THAT OUT!~! XD )
And you get to watch all these girls walk past you line by line and you get to " CHECK " them out literally MAN!~!!!! I mean, yea obviously u check for the serious stuff, but then, in come this son of a mathafcker (my buddy) and tell you in your ear, " Hey, this girl, nice shape wei..... " And it never crossed my mind ( I know you wanna say, "YEA RIGHT" ) But HONESTLY, it never crossed my mind, till my buddy said that, N I'm like WTF?!?!? Cuz I'm like putting on a straight face, being serious doing my job, then that sucker came to talk sh@T. (Slaps face).
But yea, then u realised, hey......this is cool......if I like this chick, I'd get to "purposely" STOP her, check her badge WHATEVER.
Or say anything whatever THE HELL I WANT, with the fact of course, the whole line has gotta stop and STARE and me saying whatever I want to this girl. Which, is still NOT BAD XD
SO I did!~! xD Hey man, its cool.
And the girl......haha, she feels cooler. I'd stop the whole world, and have the whole world to know and look at me saying stuff like, " Stop please. Hey, you look great, I like it. ;) " And then say, " Next!~! xD "
And imagine that man. Told ya dude, we'd get that and girls, any other day.
I dunno if I miss the days, or I miss it cause of the fun I had with the girls xD.
But honestly, I miss it. Those fights, those nights, those.....times. Seem so far and child-like now. I never looked forward to after school unlike every1 else. I never quite thinked of, " ITS GONNA BE GREAT AFTER JUNIOR HIGH!~! "
NEVER. I was always having fun......I'd be like, after junior high, is just life isn't it? Whats the big diff?
CAUSE, DUDE, I HAVE FUN where EVER I go. Nothing's gonna STOP THAT. \\m// \\m//
Sure, those guys go on smoking and whatever crap. I don't partake in smoking though I partake something else, but still, ask me today, I miss those times. Not cause its better then, its just that sometimes, some old feelings will never wane.
Then again, these things they don't go away. You don't erase it, you just......live with it. Its just a part of you that you never erase. Cuz its YOUR memory. You can't MAKE something completely GONE just cause you hate it. Its gonna be with you. No matter what happens.
If you wanna think about how much you hate that you can never forget breakups, haha, I'd like the fact that memories don't wane away from me, cause I'd still get to revisit these old happy times I had with my buddy.
See, you always have an option.
If some memories will be a part of you, no matter what, it means the good and the bad will be there.
Its just you choosing which, the bad or the good to focus on. If you keep thinking about hate, you're there with the bad. If you think about the good, you're there.
And he's just planning to get his @$$ in the upright position.
Planning, packing, visa and stuffs.
And guess what his parents are just too busy doing stuff I'm filling in for temporary baby sitting haha.
Sort of.
So I went with my buddy downtown to get doctor checkups for him and stuff and we had some fun messing with people. Or more of people messin with us.
Little things like which girl looked at me or him first. Or if that girl talked to him or me 1st. It means something. YEA RIGHT> If a girl actually ties her laces up with her @$$ facin u, its supposed to mean that she wants you to bang her to right? Wtf man....lols BUT yea, it was fun messing round.
And if we'd dare our guts to go at the girl.
The usual thing. That we stopped doing to each other ages ago. That goes far back-since high school.
Punching bags for each other we'd always punch like hell just to see who's the man.
Its just funny how we're in 2 different universities now. And life will soon diverge so much from the path that we were originally on. Ahh......Nostalgic.
Back then its just, his gelled hair, my slick hair, our prefect duty or privilege (more off xD).
Challenging each other, Picking fights, fight with buddies (sometimes it happens. Dnt ask), covering others, ensure people are safe, no fighting, (but sometimes we get into it ourselves xD), living on every other day, looking out for some sucker who tried to hit on his sister (his sister is as well as mine), adhering to rules and making sure every1 was doing that.
Backing each other up when we got into sh@t. Also responsible for putting each other into sh@t sometimes xD Intentionally-speaking.
Ahhh......of course. The girls......WE'd get it everytime we send students off to class.
The best part about being the prefect back in junior high?? Lol, is that you get any CHICK, ANYWHERE, WHOEVER. You got that access man. (I think that's why I signed up despite I always claim about my righteous duty xD. Sh@T I JUST FIGURED THAT OUT!~! XD )
And you get to watch all these girls walk past you line by line and you get to " CHECK " them out literally MAN!~!!!! I mean, yea obviously u check for the serious stuff, but then, in come this son of a mathafcker (my buddy) and tell you in your ear, " Hey, this girl, nice shape wei..... " And it never crossed my mind ( I know you wanna say, "YEA RIGHT" ) But HONESTLY, it never crossed my mind, till my buddy said that, N I'm like WTF?!?!? Cuz I'm like putting on a straight face, being serious doing my job, then that sucker came to talk sh@T. (Slaps face).
But yea, then u realised, hey......this is cool......if I like this chick, I'd get to "purposely" STOP her, check her badge WHATEVER.
Or say anything whatever THE HELL I WANT, with the fact of course, the whole line has gotta stop and STARE and me saying whatever I want to this girl. Which, is still NOT BAD XD
SO I did!~! xD Hey man, its cool.
And the girl......haha, she feels cooler. I'd stop the whole world, and have the whole world to know and look at me saying stuff like, " Stop please. Hey, you look great, I like it. ;) " And then say, " Next!~! xD "
And imagine that man. Told ya dude, we'd get that and girls, any other day.
I dunno if I miss the days, or I miss it cause of the fun I had with the girls xD.
But honestly, I miss it. Those fights, those nights, those.....times. Seem so far and child-like now. I never looked forward to after school unlike every1 else. I never quite thinked of, " ITS GONNA BE GREAT AFTER JUNIOR HIGH!~! "
NEVER. I was always having fun......I'd be like, after junior high, is just life isn't it? Whats the big diff?
CAUSE, DUDE, I HAVE FUN where EVER I go. Nothing's gonna STOP THAT. \\m// \\m//
Sure, those guys go on smoking and whatever crap. I don't partake in smoking though I partake something else, but still, ask me today, I miss those times. Not cause its better then, its just that sometimes, some old feelings will never wane.
Then again, these things they don't go away. You don't erase it, you just......live with it. Its just a part of you that you never erase. Cuz its YOUR memory. You can't MAKE something completely GONE just cause you hate it. Its gonna be with you. No matter what happens.
If you wanna think about how much you hate that you can never forget breakups, haha, I'd like the fact that memories don't wane away from me, cause I'd still get to revisit these old happy times I had with my buddy.
See, you always have an option.
If some memories will be a part of you, no matter what, it means the good and the bad will be there.
Its just you choosing which, the bad or the good to focus on. If you keep thinking about hate, you're there with the bad. If you think about the good, you're there.
Saturday, 27 July 2013
My primary buddy's 21st birthday celebration N I didn't even need to "TRY"
Was cool!~! =D
I didn't bring like heck alot of ppl around cause he just told like last min..........then it was like........
Crazy cause I was like, " What the heck? I don't drink d bro. I thought u told me u grew up? xD "
Yada yada yada.
And I'm like the only buddy bro from primary he's got to call along. The rest are all his......
" Life has gone so far, these are the people that I've met " ---kinda friends.
Anyways, off we went talking stuff. Crazy guys came all the way up just to drink man.
I was like, ok, lets just go somewhere you normally go to. But he'd bring them up to meet me in my place man!~! Big-time bro. Big-time.
And.....they were still going for the second round after that back in private home to go all out on liquor. They just wanna get high and drunk man....lols.
And I'm nuts, and they're way nuttier-for yesterday only man xD.
Cuz I've still gotta play like 4-5 badminton games a week, I can't let this stuff get to me lols.
As for the yester party,
No problem. Everyone was sober.
No out of the mind blackouts or girls disappearing.
Ahh......yes.....a party without the drama. For once. Haha.
Like what I think though, I'm the life of the party. And hey, if I just kept a lil low profile, it appears the party ain't that hot. When I burst out, go all out 6th gear, haha. Party ain't just a party. Its a.....party + "the crazy factor" a.k.a.= me.
Alright, you're gonna ask if I'm gonna go back to party rock? Going crazy? Like how I used to?
Hints:
1: Crazy, I'll always be.
2: Partying. Everyday.
3: Drinking. I guess I can call it a NO way. "I mean crazy drinking like how I used to"
Cause I've been there. Pretty much done. After awhile, you'll see and understand some things.
The motives behind those stuff. And then you pretty much realise........
the reason for all that.....just don't mean that much anymore.
I've always been hyper and nuts. And when I ain't, well, u can tell what, when and why.
And then you think, " wait, I didn't need an excuse to get hyper and happy. "
So, what about now? If I didn't need an excuse to get hyper and happy, do I still need the heck to go do that kinda thing? I just.....realised like....I really don't need to.
I can party, be crazy and get hyper, every other day with or without "ale". So, with the ale? Its still me if I don't wanna go hyper.
I'm just no longer gonna let that thing drive and control me no more.
I mean, occasionally, its still okay. But going all out like how I used to every other week or time, its just done.
Sometimes in life you, just find a better meaning in certain things that you do. And things change.
But of course, if its my friend's birthday, I should go crazy right? Haha. Just not yesterday though.
Still crazy, but no longer crazy like, " Hey girl, wassup.....like your style....Ur birthday today too? Gee, my buddy's birthday today. " Make this party man....
For some apparent reason, I no longer go all out to go and talk to some random chick. Whats up though? I really don't know. Something weird, but yea......its just.....plain weird.
Maybe I'm just tired cause of so many badminton matches.
No more match and mixing tables in the party or the field......Yesterday was just chilling. And at times when you chill. You'd still get chicks talking to you anyway. ;)
Just.....a different kinda chick though.
And hey, u get the more sensitive ones!~! xD Rather than the crazy, loud, a.k.a. crazy me type.
So, either way, you still get chicks bro!~! xP
Weird stuff. But I prefer it when I go hit out on somebody rather than some chick hitting up on passive me. IT JUST FEELS SO WEIRD. I feel so "pu$$y" alright. Its not like I'm shy or anything. I'm just chilling. Then they'd think you're havin a problem or something.
I guess NOW I KNOW how chicks feel when I randomly hit on them xD
If my talk was interesting, I'd see it in their eyes and they'd get enthusiastic talking. If it wasn't, then they'd probably get cold turkey or just make some excuse to get out of there. And guess what, I just did EXACTLY THAT. Not bad that I can actually experiment how its like man to be the one getting hit on. xD
Its like I'm just seeing crazy me trying to chat up passive me.
Life can be simple, but only when you want it to be.
I didn't bring like heck alot of ppl around cause he just told like last min..........then it was like........
Crazy cause I was like, " What the heck? I don't drink d bro. I thought u told me u grew up? xD "
Yada yada yada.
And I'm like the only buddy bro from primary he's got to call along. The rest are all his......
" Life has gone so far, these are the people that I've met " ---kinda friends.
Anyways, off we went talking stuff. Crazy guys came all the way up just to drink man.
I was like, ok, lets just go somewhere you normally go to. But he'd bring them up to meet me in my place man!~! Big-time bro. Big-time.
And.....they were still going for the second round after that back in private home to go all out on liquor. They just wanna get high and drunk man....lols.
And I'm nuts, and they're way nuttier-for yesterday only man xD.
Cuz I've still gotta play like 4-5 badminton games a week, I can't let this stuff get to me lols.
As for the yester party,
No problem. Everyone was sober.
No out of the mind blackouts or girls disappearing.
Ahh......yes.....a party without the drama. For once. Haha.
Like what I think though, I'm the life of the party. And hey, if I just kept a lil low profile, it appears the party ain't that hot. When I burst out, go all out 6th gear, haha. Party ain't just a party. Its a.....party + "the crazy factor" a.k.a.= me.
Alright, you're gonna ask if I'm gonna go back to party rock? Going crazy? Like how I used to?
Hints:
1: Crazy, I'll always be.
2: Partying. Everyday.
3: Drinking. I guess I can call it a NO way. "I mean crazy drinking like how I used to"
Cause I've been there. Pretty much done. After awhile, you'll see and understand some things.
The motives behind those stuff. And then you pretty much realise........
the reason for all that.....just don't mean that much anymore.
I've always been hyper and nuts. And when I ain't, well, u can tell what, when and why.
And then you think, " wait, I didn't need an excuse to get hyper and happy. "
So, what about now? If I didn't need an excuse to get hyper and happy, do I still need the heck to go do that kinda thing? I just.....realised like....I really don't need to.
I can party, be crazy and get hyper, every other day with or without "ale". So, with the ale? Its still me if I don't wanna go hyper.
I'm just no longer gonna let that thing drive and control me no more.
I mean, occasionally, its still okay. But going all out like how I used to every other week or time, its just done.
Sometimes in life you, just find a better meaning in certain things that you do. And things change.
But of course, if its my friend's birthday, I should go crazy right? Haha. Just not yesterday though.
Still crazy, but no longer crazy like, " Hey girl, wassup.....like your style....Ur birthday today too? Gee, my buddy's birthday today. " Make this party man....
For some apparent reason, I no longer go all out to go and talk to some random chick. Whats up though? I really don't know. Something weird, but yea......its just.....plain weird.
Maybe I'm just tired cause of so many badminton matches.
No more match and mixing tables in the party or the field......Yesterday was just chilling. And at times when you chill. You'd still get chicks talking to you anyway. ;)
Just.....a different kinda chick though.
And hey, u get the more sensitive ones!~! xD Rather than the crazy, loud, a.k.a. crazy me type.
So, either way, you still get chicks bro!~! xP
Weird stuff. But I prefer it when I go hit out on somebody rather than some chick hitting up on passive me. IT JUST FEELS SO WEIRD. I feel so "pu$$y" alright. Its not like I'm shy or anything. I'm just chilling. Then they'd think you're havin a problem or something.
I guess NOW I KNOW how chicks feel when I randomly hit on them xD
If my talk was interesting, I'd see it in their eyes and they'd get enthusiastic talking. If it wasn't, then they'd probably get cold turkey or just make some excuse to get out of there. And guess what, I just did EXACTLY THAT. Not bad that I can actually experiment how its like man to be the one getting hit on. xD
Its like I'm just seeing crazy me trying to chat up passive me.
Life can be simple, but only when you want it to be.
Tuesday, 23 July 2013
What?
" So here is the deal guys...you may say you love someone, and you may
actually love someone, but telling them that too early is probably the
worst mistake you can make. I know this first hand. rather recently,
actually, I told someone I loved them, and I did, and they didn't
believe me.
they told me I was lying to myself and to them. that I was too serious and wanting things that they were not prepared for. Said I was, in essence, making a mistake.
Now, after I made my mistake, and everybody. It was MY mistake, they dont want that relationship anymore. just...poof. feelings gone. They dont want me to get them back...to fix the damage that I did. But we were 'never a couple.'
Now, my friends...all they tell me is, we can still be friends. Not too long ago they told me: 'You can't feel what you don't, and you don't feel what you can't.' Well how do I not feel the way I do about you and try to fulfill what you want from me. I still want you. I still want to be around you, even if that means toning down my, and these are their words not mine: 'seriousness about relationships.'
they told me their definition of love. told me it was seeing each other clearly and their wants, their needs, their beauty, and especially their flaws. Its not about fulfilling those wants and needs or praising their beauty or fixing their flaws but seeing every bit and loving them for every flaw. Love is not having to think.
Well I'll tell you what. because I went from so fast from friend to caring for you was because I wasn't thinking about it. I felt for you and I pursued it. I didnt run around the friendship track, because I saw a shortcut that I thought would make us both happy. I thought that you could accept me for my flaw, and to try and get around it. But apparently I was wrong.
The words that came out of their mind were: 'I dont want this relationship. I dont want you to try to get me back. you can move on.'
But I dont want too.
Now here I sit, because ive been laying in bed for five hours and havnt been able to fall asleep. why? because I said the right thing at the wrong time. and I destroyed something that made me happy. and It was my fault. So please...bare with me if I seem down or depressed. because I have a good right to be."
Quoted.
My take it on it babe? I dunno. I can try to get sad, but I'll prolly bounce back right up after failing desperately on trying to get sad for.............say...............3 days the max? Lols.
I for one, know what the hell I want. I can't spend time in stagnation baby, cause my power drive is in gear 6 (s3X) baby.
I mean come on, won't you rather be sweet, creative and charming rather than sulky and depressed? haha.......
they told me I was lying to myself and to them. that I was too serious and wanting things that they were not prepared for. Said I was, in essence, making a mistake.
Now, after I made my mistake, and everybody. It was MY mistake, they dont want that relationship anymore. just...poof. feelings gone. They dont want me to get them back...to fix the damage that I did. But we were 'never a couple.'
Now, my friends...all they tell me is, we can still be friends. Not too long ago they told me: 'You can't feel what you don't, and you don't feel what you can't.' Well how do I not feel the way I do about you and try to fulfill what you want from me. I still want you. I still want to be around you, even if that means toning down my, and these are their words not mine: 'seriousness about relationships.'
they told me their definition of love. told me it was seeing each other clearly and their wants, their needs, their beauty, and especially their flaws. Its not about fulfilling those wants and needs or praising their beauty or fixing their flaws but seeing every bit and loving them for every flaw. Love is not having to think.
Well I'll tell you what. because I went from so fast from friend to caring for you was because I wasn't thinking about it. I felt for you and I pursued it. I didnt run around the friendship track, because I saw a shortcut that I thought would make us both happy. I thought that you could accept me for my flaw, and to try and get around it. But apparently I was wrong.
The words that came out of their mind were: 'I dont want this relationship. I dont want you to try to get me back. you can move on.'
But I dont want too.
Now here I sit, because ive been laying in bed for five hours and havnt been able to fall asleep. why? because I said the right thing at the wrong time. and I destroyed something that made me happy. and It was my fault. So please...bare with me if I seem down or depressed. because I have a good right to be."
Quoted.
My take it on it babe? I dunno. I can try to get sad, but I'll prolly bounce back right up after failing desperately on trying to get sad for.............say...............3 days the max? Lols.
I for one, know what the hell I want. I can't spend time in stagnation baby, cause my power drive is in gear 6 (s3X) baby.
I mean come on, won't you rather be sweet, creative and charming rather than sulky and depressed? haha.......
Thursday, 18 July 2013
Sorry for the surprise
I believe in saying good morning, saying hi and being courteous because I sincerely wish them well.
Not because I want to owe it up to social expectations. It means if I don't feel like it, I won't wish some1 well, or say GOOD JOB. When I say something "good". It means I mean something "good".
How further self-explanatory is that?
Likewise, when I figure that its sh@t, I say its sh@t. Thats that.
SO the darn argument about, there's nothing to be happy about so don't etc etc etc. Fake etc etc etc.
LOLOLOLOLLOLOLOLOLOL dude. The only reason y you think its fake, its cause you are FAKE. You are FAKING a simple "good morning". Faking a "wave". A "hi". A.....anything.... Thats y u feel so pressured. If you sincerely want to say hi and u are sincerely enthusiastic, how the hell, is that FAKE? Seriously, I don't even know how to begin looking at things that way.
1st of: I don't shove sunshine up your a$$. Or anybody's a$$ for that matter. Got that?
2nd of: SO if I say somehting, I mean it.
3rd of: I don't need to prove something, cause I am something alrd. More so prove it to some1 like you.
4th of: I don't apologise for something I did, cause obviously, it wasn't something wrong. If it was, I'd be apologising. Then again, I am hardly apologising.
Ooo....did I overwhelm you? Gee. I'm sorry. Its meant to be overwhelming. Cause dude, I'm one in a million and I am overwhelming. So if its too much for u, its probably u got small @#$% and u can't @#$% take this up. I think u can hardly lift ur @#$% up.
You either got the guts to say it and do it or you don't. You? You obviously don't.
So yea........If you're the dark to the light, never satisfied, and you only know things that will fail to be, pessimistic, seeing the ends to come, where every joy is lost to a tragedy, and still wondering why you cannot find your peace today, let me tell u:
You could be standing in the sunset or sunrise and still u'll see rain coming down with dark clouds, when its super bright to everyone else. N your heart could be pumping cold and grey.
SO, do every1 else around you and us a favour:
1: Keep your misery.
2: Keep your cloud of darkness and doom off my parade.
N know that:
3: Where ever I go, I set off a spark and I burn all your cloud away and steal more sparks and continue to burn.
Not because I want to owe it up to social expectations. It means if I don't feel like it, I won't wish some1 well, or say GOOD JOB. When I say something "good". It means I mean something "good".
How further self-explanatory is that?
Likewise, when I figure that its sh@t, I say its sh@t. Thats that.
SO the darn argument about, there's nothing to be happy about so don't etc etc etc. Fake etc etc etc.
LOLOLOLOLLOLOLOLOLOL dude. The only reason y you think its fake, its cause you are FAKE. You are FAKING a simple "good morning". Faking a "wave". A "hi". A.....anything.... Thats y u feel so pressured. If you sincerely want to say hi and u are sincerely enthusiastic, how the hell, is that FAKE? Seriously, I don't even know how to begin looking at things that way.
1st of: I don't shove sunshine up your a$$. Or anybody's a$$ for that matter. Got that?
2nd of: SO if I say somehting, I mean it.
3rd of: I don't need to prove something, cause I am something alrd. More so prove it to some1 like you.
4th of: I don't apologise for something I did, cause obviously, it wasn't something wrong. If it was, I'd be apologising. Then again, I am hardly apologising.
Ooo....did I overwhelm you? Gee. I'm sorry. Its meant to be overwhelming. Cause dude, I'm one in a million and I am overwhelming. So if its too much for u, its probably u got small @#$% and u can't @#$% take this up. I think u can hardly lift ur @#$% up.
You either got the guts to say it and do it or you don't. You? You obviously don't.
So yea........If you're the dark to the light, never satisfied, and you only know things that will fail to be, pessimistic, seeing the ends to come, where every joy is lost to a tragedy, and still wondering why you cannot find your peace today, let me tell u:
You could be standing in the sunset or sunrise and still u'll see rain coming down with dark clouds, when its super bright to everyone else. N your heart could be pumping cold and grey.
SO, do every1 else around you and us a favour:
1: Keep your misery.
2: Keep your cloud of darkness and doom off my parade.
N know that:
3: Where ever I go, I set off a spark and I burn all your cloud away and steal more sparks and continue to burn.
When there's an imbalanced equation PA=HW+CPM+CMS+L
You want it to end but you know it never stops
You're determined to start, but you know it will end.
You walk the path, but you get lost.
Hopeless you may seem, you will feel at home.
A home you could stay, but you have no heart.
A heart you may have, but you have no soul.
A soul you may have, but it is empty.
And sacrifices must be made to fill this endless void of which it is empty.
I ask not, for I know.
I know not, for I haven't seen.
I see not, for I hear.
I hear not, for my fears.
I fear not, for I feel.
And I feel not for I can never feel.
I ask not of the questions, for I know its answers.
I seek not the answer because I know it will happen.
And I need not of your reassurance, for I am sure.
I need not to be told. For I know what you will say.
And I sing not, lest it be the truth. Now hear me.........
You're determined to start, but you know it will end.
You walk the path, but you get lost.
Hopeless you may seem, you will feel at home.
A home you could stay, but you have no heart.
A heart you may have, but you have no soul.
A soul you may have, but it is empty.
And sacrifices must be made to fill this endless void of which it is empty.
I ask not, for I know.
I know not, for I haven't seen.
I see not, for I hear.
I hear not, for my fears.
I fear not, for I feel.
And I feel not for I can never feel.
I ask not of the questions, for I know its answers.
I seek not the answer because I know it will happen.
And I need not of your reassurance, for I am sure.
I need not to be told. For I know what you will say.
And I sing not, lest it be the truth. Now hear me.........
Of random thoughts that don't make sense
Sometimes it seems so hard to really feel
It doesn't take a broken heart just to get it real.
You won't know what it really feels like.
You'd be wondering if you're not meant to be.
Maybe you can't compromise. But whatever it is, that this subject, it gets you dry.
The mention of it, freaks you out. How can something so simple seem so complicated?
A restless heart. A restless mind. A restless soul. Restless thoughts.
For a moment you had rest. Seems like the best. That you stay alone. And you ask if you'd just like to be there. Alone. Not that bad once you "get used" to it.
No amount of preparation gets you anywhere.
You're just better off prepared. But you don't get there for sure or thanks to your planning. Planning is a largely overdressed thing. You're just better off prepared.
Then again, if something is cool to you. You don't "get used" to it. You DON'T have to "try". It'll be so easy. Why would you need to pretend? You had it set and done. Getting "used" to partying till no tomorrow. More like "being used". No worries. Life is short. etc etc etc. And? You thought that. That was it. Thats the ruddy end to the story of the party till 5am story.
Till you "found" this person. Till you had someone. Or you could say that she had you. Someone that makes a meaning out of it and makes you be a better person not just cause its for SOMEBODY. Not just cause you wanna impress SOMEBODY. Not just cause of anything. Just cause......you care about this person. And you think of endless possibilities. And somehow, you fear losing something now. Not afraid of losing her to somebody. But you fear that you cannot provide. Not that any amount of accommodation was required from you. But you just feel it. The indescribable feeling. Its not gratitude or blind wants or desire that you needed. Just this......duty/privilege that you feel. Something no words can explain. Something that made you care. You tread around. Doing stuff. You don't care. Nobody. No one. Ever. Gets at you for naught. Then.....gee. You realise. Hey. You do care. You can care. That feeling and that capacity? I dunno where it went long and lost somewhere in X-files. N suddenly. You do care?
For constant intervals you figure out. That you must be dreaming. Maybe you haven't been sleeping. Maybe you haven't been partying enough. Then, you realise.......that long lost data trapped somewhere you thought was corrupted and deleted did show up again. And it starts running inside that RAM. And you.....don't know what it is about. The feeling seem so strange. Its almost alien.
And it restarted/rebooted the program. You thought it was an end. Cause life's gotta be that way right? For sometime, there are certain motions and laws of things that were just never broken. In came somebody who broke all the rules. Till you figure it wasn't. I don't know how many illusions you'd see through. But how many? Would someone give you another illusion till you work it up? Or is it just another story never meant to be? Now I could ask a million questions about that. Contemplate a million years and never start living or I'm just better off. being alive. for who I am. How cool is that.
It wasn't my problem that I was born too perfect for you.
And sometimes you don't even believe whatever you're saying. But then someone. Someone made you so certain with every word you say. It wasn't about confidence. But something's different in every word you say now. Because it all made perfect sense.
It doesn't take a broken heart just to get it real.
You won't know what it really feels like.
You'd be wondering if you're not meant to be.
Maybe you can't compromise. But whatever it is, that this subject, it gets you dry.
The mention of it, freaks you out. How can something so simple seem so complicated?
A restless heart. A restless mind. A restless soul. Restless thoughts.
For a moment you had rest. Seems like the best. That you stay alone. And you ask if you'd just like to be there. Alone. Not that bad once you "get used" to it.
No amount of preparation gets you anywhere.
You're just better off prepared. But you don't get there for sure or thanks to your planning. Planning is a largely overdressed thing. You're just better off prepared.
Then again, if something is cool to you. You don't "get used" to it. You DON'T have to "try". It'll be so easy. Why would you need to pretend? You had it set and done. Getting "used" to partying till no tomorrow. More like "being used". No worries. Life is short. etc etc etc. And? You thought that. That was it. Thats the ruddy end to the story of the party till 5am story.
Till you "found" this person. Till you had someone. Or you could say that she had you. Someone that makes a meaning out of it and makes you be a better person not just cause its for SOMEBODY. Not just cause you wanna impress SOMEBODY. Not just cause of anything. Just cause......you care about this person. And you think of endless possibilities. And somehow, you fear losing something now. Not afraid of losing her to somebody. But you fear that you cannot provide. Not that any amount of accommodation was required from you. But you just feel it. The indescribable feeling. Its not gratitude or blind wants or desire that you needed. Just this......duty/privilege that you feel. Something no words can explain. Something that made you care. You tread around. Doing stuff. You don't care. Nobody. No one. Ever. Gets at you for naught. Then.....gee. You realise. Hey. You do care. You can care. That feeling and that capacity? I dunno where it went long and lost somewhere in X-files. N suddenly. You do care?
For constant intervals you figure out. That you must be dreaming. Maybe you haven't been sleeping. Maybe you haven't been partying enough. Then, you realise.......that long lost data trapped somewhere you thought was corrupted and deleted did show up again. And it starts running inside that RAM. And you.....don't know what it is about. The feeling seem so strange. Its almost alien.
And it restarted/rebooted the program. You thought it was an end. Cause life's gotta be that way right? For sometime, there are certain motions and laws of things that were just never broken. In came somebody who broke all the rules. Till you figure it wasn't. I don't know how many illusions you'd see through. But how many? Would someone give you another illusion till you work it up? Or is it just another story never meant to be? Now I could ask a million questions about that. Contemplate a million years and never start living or I'm just better off. being alive. for who I am. How cool is that.
It wasn't my problem that I was born too perfect for you.
And sometimes you don't even believe whatever you're saying. But then someone. Someone made you so certain with every word you say. It wasn't about confidence. But something's different in every word you say now. Because it all made perfect sense.
Tuesday, 9 July 2013
What?? 0.o?
Some people emo after exams....really .....odd....
If I said this, they would say, " Aiya, you diff case, damn geng etc etc..... "
Truth is babe......I'm geng with or without exam papers, so stop saying I'm geng only after exams lol.
Ain't the 1st time of the day I'm hyper neways.
I look like I'm crazy N a fool to you, but dude, the whole world looks like that to me too.
So I guess its mutual. Haha xD
Y so upset over the paper over the day? Just chill la bro...........
Friend: I scared of the ABC paper.
Me: Dude, you'll pass. Let me show u the calculations......[shown]
Friend: I still dunno abt the paper.
Me: Dude I'd bet RM 50,000 on that paper.....
Friend 2: [sighs] You're in such a good position.
Me: Why?
Friend 2: You get to be so carefree.
Me: Lols. You're carefree when ya wanna be man.....
Friend 2: No man. Serious man. Study.
Me: Lol. Of course I'm carefree now. Done the paper. Of course I'd be serious when I'm studying. But why the hell stress myself up right now for some paper that's already done....lol!
If I said this, they would say, " Aiya, you diff case, damn geng etc etc..... "
Truth is babe......I'm geng with or without exam papers, so stop saying I'm geng only after exams lol.
Ain't the 1st time of the day I'm hyper neways.
I look like I'm crazy N a fool to you, but dude, the whole world looks like that to me too.
So I guess its mutual. Haha xD
Y so upset over the paper over the day? Just chill la bro...........
Friend: I scared of the ABC paper.
Me: Dude, you'll pass. Let me show u the calculations......[shown]
Friend: I still dunno abt the paper.
Me: Dude I'd bet RM 50,000 on that paper.....
Friend 2: [sighs] You're in such a good position.
Me: Why?
Friend 2: You get to be so carefree.
Me: Lols. You're carefree when ya wanna be man.....
Friend 2: No man. Serious man. Study.
Me: Lol. Of course I'm carefree now. Done the paper. Of course I'd be serious when I'm studying. But why the hell stress myself up right now for some paper that's already done....lol!
Wednesday, 3 July 2013
The heart, the soul and the mind
In your heart, there is a flame, a desire, a want and a need to be satisfied. A hunger.
It seems nothing can put it out until a point in time where you realize it could be put out.
In your soul, there is a pain, a pain so long ago, you would not even remember what caused it. But it is there and it will somehow never cease to exist.
Its there, whether you look at it or not, hope for it to be gone or not. Forget it or not.
In your mind, you seek forgiveness, security and solace in a direction you almost never know all the time.
It seems nothing can put it out until a point in time where you realize it could be put out.
In your soul, there is a pain, a pain so long ago, you would not even remember what caused it. But it is there and it will somehow never cease to exist.
Its there, whether you look at it or not, hope for it to be gone or not. Forget it or not.
In your mind, you seek forgiveness, security and solace in a direction you almost never know all the time.
Life can be simple. But only when you want it to be.
Here's the deal. I think we have enough negativity in our lives.
Some may say, " What so good about the bloody morning? "
I beg to differ and say, " Well its great that every morning is bloody. "
When a problem arrives, laugh at it, take it like a challenge. Climb it over.
Be strong.
Steps on making life simple:
1: If you MISS somebody, CALL them
2: If you wanna MEET UP with someone, just INVITE them.
3: If you think you're MISUNDERSTOOD, EXPLAIN.
4: If you don't UNDERSTAND or have DOUBTS, ASK
5: If you DISLIKE something, SAY it.
6: If you LIKE that, STATE it
7: If you WANT something, ASK FOR IT.
8: Well, if you LOVE her, TELL HER.
One might say, I don't bother to smile at some1 everyday, it makes me look fake N try-hard.
The is the perspective of " how I don't BOTHER "
My take it on it, I think the world is dark enough to be any darker, so.....
I'd rather smile, laugh, pass the day N make somebody's world brighter.
Sure, I might not be able to make BIG changes like give them a car, a house, money or anything for that matter. I can't get them a scholarship if they don't have 1 or anything else if they don't own that.
I think I could at least get them to smile???
I think thats good enough to make the world brighter.
You could either say I'm living every each day(still alive everyday) or I'm dying everyday (closer to deathbed). Its totally your take. Free country.
Despite the fact that I would like to crack some stuff N get ppl to smile at "annoying" me, I have the perspective that I'm 1 step closer to death everyday.
N thats why...........I'm dying everyday, just to see you smile.
Some may say, " What so good about the bloody morning? "
I beg to differ and say, " Well its great that every morning is bloody. "
When a problem arrives, laugh at it, take it like a challenge. Climb it over.
Be strong.
Steps on making life simple:
1: If you MISS somebody, CALL them
2: If you wanna MEET UP with someone, just INVITE them.
3: If you think you're MISUNDERSTOOD, EXPLAIN.
4: If you don't UNDERSTAND or have DOUBTS, ASK
5: If you DISLIKE something, SAY it.
6: If you LIKE that, STATE it
7: If you WANT something, ASK FOR IT.
8: Well, if you LOVE her, TELL HER.
One might say, I don't bother to smile at some1 everyday, it makes me look fake N try-hard.
The is the perspective of " how I don't BOTHER "
My take it on it, I think the world is dark enough to be any darker, so.....
I'd rather smile, laugh, pass the day N make somebody's world brighter.
Sure, I might not be able to make BIG changes like give them a car, a house, money or anything for that matter. I can't get them a scholarship if they don't have 1 or anything else if they don't own that.
I think I could at least get them to smile???
I think thats good enough to make the world brighter.
You could either say I'm living every each day(still alive everyday) or I'm dying everyday (closer to deathbed). Its totally your take. Free country.
Despite the fact that I would like to crack some stuff N get ppl to smile at "annoying" me, I have the perspective that I'm 1 step closer to death everyday.
N thats why...........I'm dying everyday, just to see you smile.
Sunday, 23 June 2013
Basic common sense for those who doesn't get it.
Why would you treat anyone on priority when you're NOT their priority?
Why would you live with ANYONE that doesn't like your COMPANY?
Why in the HECK WOULD YOU ENJOY THEIRS?
If she doesn't enjoy you, WHY WOULD YOU ENJOY HER not ENJOYING you? or ENJOY HER at all?
If she's OK with it, why EVER would you NOT be OK?! If she doesn't want it, why EVER would you?!
If she doesn't mind it, WHY DO YOU?!~!~!!
Why would you NEED Anyone, who doesn't need you? WHA :O? wHy. EVER?
If she doesn't WANT you, why EVER would you?
WHy would you CARE if SHE didn't CARE?!
Why would you be with someone that's A-OK with LETTING YOU DOWN? :O
WHY IN THE ACTUAL HECK WOULD YOU DO THAT?
If SHE CAN be JUST FINE without you, WHY NOT YOU?!
WHy would you EVA live a LIE?!?!
Why would you live with ANYONE that doesn't like your COMPANY?
Why in the HECK WOULD YOU ENJOY THEIRS?
If she doesn't enjoy you, WHY WOULD YOU ENJOY HER not ENJOYING you? or ENJOY HER at all?
If she's OK with it, why EVER would you NOT be OK?! If she doesn't want it, why EVER would you?!
If she doesn't mind it, WHY DO YOU?!~!~!!
Why would you NEED Anyone, who doesn't need you? WHA :O? wHy. EVER?
If she doesn't WANT you, why EVER would you?
WHy would you CARE if SHE didn't CARE?!
Why would you be with someone that's A-OK with LETTING YOU DOWN? :O
WHY IN THE ACTUAL HECK WOULD YOU DO THAT?
If SHE CAN be JUST FINE without you, WHY NOT YOU?!
WHy would you EVA live a LIE?!?!
Saturday, 15 June 2013
Nothing New
And the words don't come when you want it to be,
And the tears don't dry when you wanted to see,
Oh no, this ain't nothing really new to me.
When you're lost and gone, I'm the one you needed you see,
When your hearts really broken, I will mend it, you see.
Don't ever think about, how I'd ever leave you be.
And you sing alone on a Sunday night,
You ring a bell but there's no one's in sight.
You look into a home but no one's there inside.
Then you think all about whatever's said and done
You reel in and out about what's lost and won.
You're feelin a lil lost, but you're still number one.
And the tunes don't rhyme when you want it to be,
Just cause the moon don't shine when you want it you see,
Oh no, there's nothing really new, you see.
When its long gone and lost you'll find it to be,
Like the wind don't whistle when you're listening, you see,
Its over baby, and its nothing, new to me.
Bridge:
Its so familiar, all these scenes.
Its like a solenoid, polaroid revolving scene.
N I've come too far to realise, what could never ever be.
And the days won't shine, when I want you, you see.
Like the nights so cold, when you're far from me.
This is something I don't need and it ain't something new to me
8431 60/61
And the tears don't dry when you wanted to see,
Oh no, this ain't nothing really new to me.
When you're lost and gone, I'm the one you needed you see,
When your hearts really broken, I will mend it, you see.
Don't ever think about, how I'd ever leave you be.
And you sing alone on a Sunday night,
You ring a bell but there's no one's in sight.
You look into a home but no one's there inside.
Then you think all about whatever's said and done
You reel in and out about what's lost and won.
You're feelin a lil lost, but you're still number one.
And the tunes don't rhyme when you want it to be,
Just cause the moon don't shine when you want it you see,
Oh no, there's nothing really new, you see.
When its long gone and lost you'll find it to be,
Like the wind don't whistle when you're listening, you see,
Its over baby, and its nothing, new to me.
Bridge:
Its so familiar, all these scenes.
Its like a solenoid, polaroid revolving scene.
N I've come too far to realise, what could never ever be.
And the days won't shine, when I want you, you see.
Like the nights so cold, when you're far from me.
This is something I don't need and it ain't something new to me
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Wednesday, 29 May 2013
True?
I don’t know why sometimes we seem so far apart.
Words keep flowing out but I dunno what they mean.
I used to write the songs cause I know them
I used to write the songs cause I know them
Now I write the tunes but I dunno the words
Cause there have been too many that I don’t know which is
the best
The tunes don’t rhyme in line cause I have too many thoughts
Too much to feel
Too much to say
So much to learn
But you’ve always been a friend to me
I’ll make sure you don’t cry again
I’m the 1 who can set things right again
N I’ll be there always
I don’t know if someone else could handle me
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do
But you’re different, you get me
You can pretend u don’t. But yes you get me.
I can feel something growin inside, but I dunno what its all
about.
You’ve got all that I need
And I’m good for something
So lets give it a try
Saturday, 5 January 2013
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Its enough for us to move on, regardless how much sweet moment n time that you had before
If he/she really love u, he/she wont feel that way..GO n get OVER him/her."
"Still not over him/her? Read old diary entries. Give away clothes/gifts. Burn photos/letters. Perform an exorcism if you have to."
"Dial your best friend"
"No more one on one night outs. Or trips. Assuming that ever such outing is not an innocent plan."
"Sever the environment. So no contact, no check-ups no news and no updates."
"Give old belongings to a friend until you are OVEr them."
"Delete the number??"
Okay, most of these comments just a big turn-off. N honestly, doing them, really. What kinda chick crack would that do anyway?
OKay. Who wouldn't try them though.
But honestly, it would be really funny if you did everything N it ended up the same. =D
Yea, thats how you'll be smiling.
Slightly upgraded versions:
"Remember the bad times not the good times."
"Go cold turkey"
"NEVER EVER get your stuff back"
"Get some other girl"
Now that was the last straw.
Some dumb solution on how one man, who can't handle himself at the moment is expected to just simply get his head into another relation N send it down haywire.
What a dumb crack solution~~!!!
Seriously, am I the only who thinks that whatever we're doing is all due to social media, propaganda, the commercial medium at large and the trends. That was started by tom, dick or harry. or whatever.
Come on, when they used "shoulder pads" for the HOTTEST fashion for women back in the 1980s, its called DUMBfounded right now, and designers are saying, " How did THAT GET APPROVED? "
Its really simple. Are you sure? Are you certain that your will if of your own? Or is it just some representation.
Discover yourself and DO what you would really do. Rather than what is driven to be done.