Extraordinary

What defines it?
My formula: unconditional, life-changing, mind-altering, truly, madly, deeply, passionate-sometimes-extraordinarily-difficult. Mind-blowing, breath-taking, mind-stopping, life-changing, heart-stopping, blood-rushing.

Sounds like one in a million and contradictory.
How does blood rushes when your heart stops?
Lol, whatever.

Chill out. ;)

Somewhat back to my own mind

Taking time to think it through;
I'm not the one that broke you, I'm not the one you should fear.

I would suppose I've fallen ill for a period of time.
Sure does feel like it.
Why does it always feel like I am no longer as strong as I used to be.
I mean physically.
Like I could carry 10-12 chairs one go, back then and now, 8's would have killed my back.

I could run till I leave everything behind.
Hold back your fears.

I'm one more step ahead of that.
I don't want to run anymore. I'm facing it. And I'm going to overcome this.
And I won't hold back my fears anymore, I'm just gonna lose it.
I won't hold to it no more. I no longer fear it.

Temporary setbacks are nothing to me.
And my buddies just reminded me of myself.
Of who and what I would really do. How can I contradict that right.

This is where nothing holds me back.
And that's $h@rK.
Put a wall in front of me and I'll walk right through it.
I don't pick the simple fights cause I know I get to get through the hard ones with the team that I have because I know, that we're worthy enough to get through it.
So go ahead and pick the easy battles. What pride is there in that?

What now.......

Okay.........
Lost my voice.
Darn frustrated.
Good time to express feelings through the guitar (they say if you don't have a voice, you'd do anything to get your message across).

Goo Goo Dolls is great. And my friend told me, " wow you're finally near the 90s and the millennium. No problem though, you're still 13 years away from 2013 even if you're in 2000 xD "

And there's something more I can't describe.
This time. Its speechless in a different way. ?? ? ?  ?? ?? ?? ???
Sh@t. Some age-old mind-f@ck goin on here.
What............now..............geez..........

That's..........sad.. Or wrong. Or...........right? Or.......true or .......false.........or........
Hmm......
Mayb just the thought process.

Cheers

I'm still believin.
You born and you die and its gone in a minute.
I ain't lookin back cause I don't wanna miss it.

Hilariously contradictory interesting annoying as hell

I want you to stand on the edge with me.
Hold nothing back.
Just run till we leave everything behind.
You'll see how much you can breathe, smile and laugh before you can catch your breath back.

I wanna fly with you in the clouds.
I wanna drop down from the sky with you and give no damn about all the birds that are flying by watching.
I wanna be free. But I want you to feel this "free".

I want to show you that you can stay here being free and yet be having so much fun at the same time.
And that's where you'll see that the answer to all that you are thinking, feeling and worrying about is given when you stop thinking about it.
The answer that you could always never be find will be right in front of your eyes the moment you let love in.

You're hilariously interesting.
You're nothing like what you try to be.
You're nothing like what it seems.
And its cool how I can see how you fool every1.
You drown everyone with your vanity and your self-love.
What you feel is what you are, and what you are is beautiful.
For that you are never what you are at the moment and how it never stays the same is beautiful.

I'll never be what some1 wants me to be.
But I can be whatever some1 wanted.
And no1 can break me as long as I know who I am.
They can't tell me who to be, cause I'm not what they see.
I wanna touch things I don't feel.
I wanna hold on and I wanna feel I belong. I want to stay "changing".

And I'll burn everything, if you would run with me.
Just being who you are.
I like that ever-changing storm in you. Don't change a thing.
But keep changing cause that's the way you are.

Enough talking, lets just start living like we mean it and love till we feel it.
I'd love to talk and I could forever.
But lets just run before its too late.
The only rule is, there are no rules cause love's the only rule.

Clearly, truely and undoubtedly.

How long has it been since I see.
I can't say I have seen any clearer than this since I dunno when.

I have gone more speechless than I could literally imagine.
I have a lil of a sorethroat or whatever you call it. It doesn't bother me much other than that of my speech.
I do get a lil bit more snappy with this generally tight feeling around my neck. Feels like being choked all the time.

It now sounds like I have a slang and I can only speak at a low register.
Music's been getting to me (jamming too much maybe?)

Other than that, my best buddy just had a breakup. Not like its a big thing. Really.
Nowadays, things come and go.
Not that it matters anymore.
Hangin out as usual.
N he would talk about e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g. Like ol' times.

Feels a lil numb these days. Those extreme things.....we've......done those....
The jokes 
There's something missing. What is it.
But I have to see. I have to run. I have to feel. The feeling of the air brushing through my ears and my face.
Is it this feeling that I need?
Something is missing inside me. No, I am not going to take an X-ray to figure out if I lost an organ inside me thanks.

I clearly know what to do.
I mean I always know what to.
Unless some1 bothers me 24 hours a day clearly from my thought process.