I would not know for sure how many have experienced good childhood altogether.
I surely would say that I have enjoyed mine.
Those memories almost seem gone away and waned like how the moon have.
Now I know why people can no longer write good literature.
Once you reflect back, you realise how the environment was back then.
Listening to songs that were older gives you an idea of the pace and tempo of the life back then.
It really wasn't that fast.
After sometime you've spent here, you lose the feeling of the eager to learn and sometimes disheartened to see any further than what you already see.
And then, you remember, how innocent, naive and curiousity took you the moment you walked out of your door exploring options and learning about the world.
Oh, I sure miss those days where I could cycle and play off at a field without concern or worries. Saying words that I won't know half the time. Playing football with neighbours without any shoes on, on a tar road, going downhill to race, fall down, hurt myself, sweat.
But yea, that was all worth it for the fun of it.
I believe, deep down inside every one of us, is a child, our real self, covered by commercialization, peer pressure, standards, culture and every other thing that was meant to distort the identity.
With reference to the Bible, mankind honestly, was not this complicated at initial creation.
Today, with all the hectic schedule, I almost forgotten what it was to live. These childhood memories have one lesson to teach all of us, regardless of what type of experience you had, the lesson was, despite our chases for certain things in life, honestly, there is only one thing you really are looking for.
A life. And its a good and happy one.
Sometimes we work too hard, get affected by negativity, get stubborn and forget about the point of working so hard in the first place.
Its all for a better living.
So, don't lose the rationale and the sanity, we're all trying to get past out life as sane here.
Lets keep each other sane and happy.
Monday, 25 June 2012
Monday, 18 June 2012
Blasphemy
Sometimes in life you just feel the pain but you can't let it go.
Sometimes in life people give you pain but you just can't do anything but to grit your teeth and take it in.
Sometimes you give yourself pain in life, but you really intentional do it and don't intend on letting it go either.
But tell me, what hath a simple man like me can do, when thy beloved Father tells you in his name not to achieve?
It is fine that I encounter anything or anyone that would have not given a damn.
But this, I cannot take.
Imagine if you have been achieving, studying, going all out at one thing all these while for this one person.
And when that point arrives, you realize that this person, you admired, cared about and respected so much, your role model, you realize, that this person, did not trust you.
You realize that he has always been watching you. Careful, cautious. Yes.
Caring. In a way.
But what happens if you realize that he has been watching you because he does not trust you?
What would you do if you realize that he suspected you of something?
What happen if you realize that he was slightly jealous?
What happen when all your efforts that was pure sincerity to impress and achieve in his name, hoping to someday repay back the deeds he has done to you so far as you have lived under his roof, what happen, when all of your sincerity and good thought and your filial efforts, filial ideas, filial core and principles been labeled as SELFISHNESS and an ENDLESS and POINTLESS CHASE in life?
How would you feel? How would you react? Would you have stopped achieving altogether?
Would you have suicide by that 30 floor apartment you always wanted to jump down from, because you felt free??
It is odd, how your parents would tell you to achieve, and take care of them in the future, yet tell you now, that you should not study so hard. Be lax, be a sloth and enjoy life. Learn nothing. It will be fine.
Perhaps I can assume that their era was filled with dumb and lax people who give no effort to achieve. Or I can so believe that they are too many years ahead of me that they have no more MEANING to life but to lax and be a sloth.
It is critically your LIFE and your CONCERN that you are awaiting DEATH or that DEATH awaits you. Or even perhaps that the gradient of your LIVING GRAPH is going downwards. However much I may respect and care for someone in that MANNER. I cannot FORGO my OWN LIFE and say that I TOO SHALL JOIN YOUR MOOD of ANTICIPATION OF DEATH itself and ACHIEVE NOTHING.
I have a LIFE!
If you do not have ONE, I can accompany you, take care of you, earn a living for you, everything else under the sun, but TELLING ME TO NOT ACHIEVE and be LAX and be a SLOTH IS RIDICULOUS!!
Tell me. How in that condition will I ever get rich to repay their kind deeds?
How, is it possible for me to change my destiny, that I am to remain poor and work my entire life off for a living, how am I to change that fate within my hands, if I am not to give it my all and my best to achieve and survive?
Sometimes in life people give you pain but you just can't do anything but to grit your teeth and take it in.
Sometimes you give yourself pain in life, but you really intentional do it and don't intend on letting it go either.
But tell me, what hath a simple man like me can do, when thy beloved Father tells you in his name not to achieve?
It is fine that I encounter anything or anyone that would have not given a damn.
But this, I cannot take.
Imagine if you have been achieving, studying, going all out at one thing all these while for this one person.
And when that point arrives, you realize that this person, you admired, cared about and respected so much, your role model, you realize, that this person, did not trust you.
You realize that he has always been watching you. Careful, cautious. Yes.
Caring. In a way.
But what happens if you realize that he has been watching you because he does not trust you?
What would you do if you realize that he suspected you of something?
What happen if you realize that he was slightly jealous?
What happen when all your efforts that was pure sincerity to impress and achieve in his name, hoping to someday repay back the deeds he has done to you so far as you have lived under his roof, what happen, when all of your sincerity and good thought and your filial efforts, filial ideas, filial core and principles been labeled as SELFISHNESS and an ENDLESS and POINTLESS CHASE in life?
How would you feel? How would you react? Would you have stopped achieving altogether?
Would you have suicide by that 30 floor apartment you always wanted to jump down from, because you felt free??
It is odd, how your parents would tell you to achieve, and take care of them in the future, yet tell you now, that you should not study so hard. Be lax, be a sloth and enjoy life. Learn nothing. It will be fine.
Perhaps I can assume that their era was filled with dumb and lax people who give no effort to achieve. Or I can so believe that they are too many years ahead of me that they have no more MEANING to life but to lax and be a sloth.
It is critically your LIFE and your CONCERN that you are awaiting DEATH or that DEATH awaits you. Or even perhaps that the gradient of your LIVING GRAPH is going downwards. However much I may respect and care for someone in that MANNER. I cannot FORGO my OWN LIFE and say that I TOO SHALL JOIN YOUR MOOD of ANTICIPATION OF DEATH itself and ACHIEVE NOTHING.
I have a LIFE!
If you do not have ONE, I can accompany you, take care of you, earn a living for you, everything else under the sun, but TELLING ME TO NOT ACHIEVE and be LAX and be a SLOTH IS RIDICULOUS!!
Tell me. How in that condition will I ever get rich to repay their kind deeds?
How, is it possible for me to change my destiny, that I am to remain poor and work my entire life off for a living, how am I to change that fate within my hands, if I am not to give it my all and my best to achieve and survive?
Friday, 15 June 2012
Equality and Defensiveness what not.
Lets get it straight.
Novocaine.
That's my favourite pain killer.
Sometimes in life you just feel the pain but you can't let it go.
Sometimes in life people give you pain but you just can't do anything but to grit your teeth and take it in.
Sometimes you give yourself pain in life, but you really intentional do it and don't intend on letting it go either.
Sometimes, in part of your life, one rascal just has to show up and screw all your EFFORTS in PRE-PLANNING something or scheduling something. Yes, regardless of whether you have it planned and systematically allocated over a useful life or planning for something 10 years ahead. SOME bloody sucker just have to come in and fck it up. Stuff happens.
However, we tend to feel less upset when it is a condition that is somehow compulsory or something beyond our control wrecks our plan. Basically, we feel hopeless and frustrated when our plans get overturned. But we, feel less upset when its a condition that is reasonable. Like how we can't control the economics.
We won't blame the economics for our loss of profit in shares but we will blame the agent and the consultants for not telling us advice in advance (regardless of whether they did give us a warning, the tendency is to blame others before blaming ourselves).
So, after that kind of short discussion.
If you actually imagine that everything is under your control, it would not relate to such an upset condition and you would fare better in life because you would account for such problems perhaps maybe 2 weeks ahead.
You can start by thinking, "Perhaps this was my fault for not accounting for this and that......etc." You would develop yourself better.
You would calculate and anticipate for HIGHER RASCALS and higher LIFE WRECKERS in your life EVER.
That's how that pessimistic theory of Morris or whatever came up with anyway.
To assume the worst.
So, lesson learnt. Next time, will account for all kinds of things.
Including the people factor and failure factor. Then lets just see what God has in store for me.
In the meantime, thank God cause I'm still alive.
Novocaine.
That's my favourite pain killer.
Sometimes in life you just feel the pain but you can't let it go.
Sometimes in life people give you pain but you just can't do anything but to grit your teeth and take it in.
Sometimes you give yourself pain in life, but you really intentional do it and don't intend on letting it go either.
Sometimes, in part of your life, one rascal just has to show up and screw all your EFFORTS in PRE-PLANNING something or scheduling something. Yes, regardless of whether you have it planned and systematically allocated over a useful life or planning for something 10 years ahead. SOME bloody sucker just have to come in and fck it up. Stuff happens.
However, we tend to feel less upset when it is a condition that is somehow compulsory or something beyond our control wrecks our plan. Basically, we feel hopeless and frustrated when our plans get overturned. But we, feel less upset when its a condition that is reasonable. Like how we can't control the economics.
We won't blame the economics for our loss of profit in shares but we will blame the agent and the consultants for not telling us advice in advance (regardless of whether they did give us a warning, the tendency is to blame others before blaming ourselves).
So, after that kind of short discussion.
If you actually imagine that everything is under your control, it would not relate to such an upset condition and you would fare better in life because you would account for such problems perhaps maybe 2 weeks ahead.
You can start by thinking, "Perhaps this was my fault for not accounting for this and that......etc." You would develop yourself better.
You would calculate and anticipate for HIGHER RASCALS and higher LIFE WRECKERS in your life EVER.
That's how that pessimistic theory of Morris or whatever came up with anyway.
To assume the worst.
So, lesson learnt. Next time, will account for all kinds of things.
Including the people factor and failure factor. Then lets just see what God has in store for me.
In the meantime, thank God cause I'm still alive.
Sunday, 8 April 2012
Running is a perspective of life.
Been long since I posted here.
Sem break was filled with fun, cycling off in FRIM and some other areas off road. Hills are steep.
Leg muscles definitely goin to go gargantuan =.=....
Other than that, went off to this place for a trip N had some fun trying to mess around as usual with a bunch of pals. Haha. ;)
Next up on the counter, trying to learn from Uni Year 1 and apply it in Uni Year 2.
Then, I went off for this charity run.
Came off 22nd. Sh*t I lost my top 20s title which is where I always retain. xP
[As if there is such thing as top 20s title. What I often heard is always champion's title xP]
Anyways, I enjoyed the run A LOT.
Literally DEFINITELY will join MORE in the future. ;)
It was fun overtaking the ladies......xP
Some are totally darn funny......lols....
Theres this guy who ran with his shoe laces untied.
There's this BLOODY walker who beat the runners man....
HE BRISKED WALKED N OVERTOOK OMG!~!!!!
Thats so pro.....
Anyways, this pumps me up for life.
Running is just like life. YOu may be panting, your legs might hurt, muscles aches or cramps or whatever, and you'll see people,
[When life is difficult]
Some you overtook, then they overtook you again, some you went past and never saw again, some you past but you still see them when you turn your head and look back.
[When you reflect on your past in life]
Some might excel way ahead of you and you can't even spot their tail, and same goes to those who can't see your tail.
[If you are the best, there always will be better. If you feel you are bad, there will always be some worse.]
But theres one thing that's certain, you're not alone in it, cause everyone around you is doing the exact same thing, keep kicking, struggling for survival.
YOu can't stop there and watch everyone past you by. You can't stop. NEVER EVER STOP RUNNING/MOVING. Once you stop, you might just stop and never move on.
[If you have a setback in life, remind yourself to never stay there too long. Cause you can either sit there and sulk, watch your whole life past you by, watch how every other human being go ahead of you and you stay there, or you can choose to run on with it and move on, even if you feel like your leg's gonna break.
IF it breaks, then it breaks. I'd rather it be broken and end it right there. Besides, if you're already stuck in a fcked up situation/setback, won't you try everything, including breaking your own legs to get out of that situation? What's worse than you feeling like you're already in the WORST? Whats worser than WORST? So if you find yourself at the WORST place, GET OUT of there, don't sit there and wait. ]
Sometimes you keep trying till you die.
Sometimes you die before you tried.
I'd rather be the former than the latter.
I'll see you guys again in another post. =)
Sem break was filled with fun, cycling off in FRIM and some other areas off road. Hills are steep.
Leg muscles definitely goin to go gargantuan =.=....
Other than that, went off to this place for a trip N had some fun trying to mess around as usual with a bunch of pals. Haha. ;)
Next up on the counter, trying to learn from Uni Year 1 and apply it in Uni Year 2.
Then, I went off for this charity run.
Came off 22nd. Sh*t I lost my top 20s title which is where I always retain. xP
[As if there is such thing as top 20s title. What I often heard is always champion's title xP]
Anyways, I enjoyed the run A LOT.
Literally DEFINITELY will join MORE in the future. ;)
It was fun overtaking the ladies......xP
Some are totally darn funny......lols....
Theres this guy who ran with his shoe laces untied.
There's this BLOODY walker who beat the runners man....
HE BRISKED WALKED N OVERTOOK OMG!~!!!!
Thats so pro.....
Anyways, this pumps me up for life.
Running is just like life. YOu may be panting, your legs might hurt, muscles aches or cramps or whatever, and you'll see people,
[When life is difficult]
Some you overtook, then they overtook you again, some you went past and never saw again, some you past but you still see them when you turn your head and look back.
[When you reflect on your past in life]
Some might excel way ahead of you and you can't even spot their tail, and same goes to those who can't see your tail.
[If you are the best, there always will be better. If you feel you are bad, there will always be some worse.]
But theres one thing that's certain, you're not alone in it, cause everyone around you is doing the exact same thing, keep kicking, struggling for survival.
YOu can't stop there and watch everyone past you by. You can't stop. NEVER EVER STOP RUNNING/MOVING. Once you stop, you might just stop and never move on.
[If you have a setback in life, remind yourself to never stay there too long. Cause you can either sit there and sulk, watch your whole life past you by, watch how every other human being go ahead of you and you stay there, or you can choose to run on with it and move on, even if you feel like your leg's gonna break.
IF it breaks, then it breaks. I'd rather it be broken and end it right there. Besides, if you're already stuck in a fcked up situation/setback, won't you try everything, including breaking your own legs to get out of that situation? What's worse than you feeling like you're already in the WORST? Whats worser than WORST? So if you find yourself at the WORST place, GET OUT of there, don't sit there and wait. ]
Sometimes you keep trying till you die.
Sometimes you die before you tried.
I'd rather be the former than the latter.
I'll see you guys again in another post. =)
Tuesday, 7 February 2012
Party getaway (Literally)
Oh yes. This one is totally for you.
Well planning that bloody thing about weeks before and during CNY was totally hectic and things were unsure and through visitings and all. But yea, it worked out fine in the end.
Exclusion clause: Except for a few who didn't turned up. Well, just 2!~! But hey, it is important that everyone is around right? xD
Hope it was fun for all of you and especially Y-O-U. Gotta give a memorable thing before you reach some god forsaken place just for a UNIVERSITY DEGREE right???? God, its just A D-E-G-R-E-E but its got to be obtained overseas???? wth???? no way......T.T
Life is such.
Its just another dose of nostalgia and melancholy when one of your friends leave for overseas. Cause when I look back, geez, it feels like yesterday when we were still in uniform, doing dumb things like picking a fight in school, or chasing skirts and chasing after that dumb guy who always makes me mad when I'm up to something serious (yea man, if you're readin this, its you. ran for blocks. omfg!).
Sometimes I'm like, what? we're here right now? I'm still in highschool or something haha.
Pre-U's over, University life comes. And, 1st year's over, the 2nd year comes. Before I know it, its going to be over.
Comes plenty of realisation that people come and go in life. They come and go for a reason, so what makes you think that they don't stay for a reason?
Well, whether they come, go or stay,
there's one thing certain about life though.
You can't live through them without the people around you.
And with it being so short, and these people being so important to you,
Doesn't take a genius to realise that you would want to spend more time with them, be it a party, or a chat-up session or anything from doing something stupid. xD
Anyways, hope life discovery goes a long-way in that country and you totally enjoy that God Forsaken place to get a DEGREE~!~!~!! xP
I still think that our country's better. Cause practically, you've got us around here whereas you've got......like what......a lot of new places and new people to explore around over there.....so what.
It still looks good over here. XD
Cheers,
God bless and enjoy yourself overseas and you'd best go before all of us start crying and stuff. xP
Well planning that bloody thing about weeks before and during CNY was totally hectic and things were unsure and through visitings and all. But yea, it worked out fine in the end.
Exclusion clause: Except for a few who didn't turned up. Well, just 2!~! But hey, it is important that everyone is around right? xD
Hope it was fun for all of you and especially Y-O-U. Gotta give a memorable thing before you reach some god forsaken place just for a UNIVERSITY DEGREE right???? God, its just A D-E-G-R-E-E but its got to be obtained overseas???? wth???? no way......T.T
Life is such.
Its just another dose of nostalgia and melancholy when one of your friends leave for overseas. Cause when I look back, geez, it feels like yesterday when we were still in uniform, doing dumb things like picking a fight in school, or chasing skirts and chasing after that dumb guy who always makes me mad when I'm up to something serious (yea man, if you're readin this, its you. ran for blocks. omfg!).
Sometimes I'm like, what? we're here right now? I'm still in highschool or something haha.
Pre-U's over, University life comes. And, 1st year's over, the 2nd year comes. Before I know it, its going to be over.
Comes plenty of realisation that people come and go in life. They come and go for a reason, so what makes you think that they don't stay for a reason?
Well, whether they come, go or stay,
there's one thing certain about life though.
You can't live through them without the people around you.
And with it being so short, and these people being so important to you,
Doesn't take a genius to realise that you would want to spend more time with them, be it a party, or a chat-up session or anything from doing something stupid. xD
Anyways, hope life discovery goes a long-way in that country and you totally enjoy that God Forsaken place to get a DEGREE~!~!~!! xP
I still think that our country's better. Cause practically, you've got us around here whereas you've got......like what......a lot of new places and new people to explore around over there.....so what.
It still looks good over here. XD
Cheers,
God bless and enjoy yourself overseas and you'd best go before all of us start crying and stuff. xP
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